Burnt madly into my recognition, the day I withered to ebony; underneath the summer heat, beautiful and broken, I swallowed defeat. Shimmering like a shattered diamond, I was painting roses black; opiates and cheap champagne, vodka mixed with laced cocaine. Red nose pouring on searing cement, liquor spilled, innocence killed; blood-soaked knees, to my soul I repent, I was searching for you in a bottle of pills. I promise I won’t try to overdose again, I’m really going to try not to overdose again. Breathless on the hospital bed, sweating, cardiac attack; cold wires hooked up to my chest, trazadone nightmares, a familiar mess. Heart failure, yet I was still a slave to your pain; you could stop my beating veins and I would still blur the lines, resisting arrest. I watched it fade to grey, tarnished dark inside of my memory; I swallowed the poison, I slowly decayed in those murky days of emery. A gloomy state of haze as I crawl deep inside your reveries; watch me bleach to white, relapsing on past treacheries. Blood loss during those moonless hours, overdose, my tongue forever stained sour. Who said it would be easy? The sadness I devour; overdose, dismantling beautiful flowers.